when i first came to see LGBTQ people as a part of God's image, it was a process of years and months. it took multiple people intervening in my thought process, pastors hinting at other ideas of love, and friends giving me room to doubt.
when i realized i was a bisexual, it seemed to happen in a moment. there was the initial thought a few years ago that it might be something i would think about, but i didn't “get it” until recently. there i was sitting next to someone i had known and spent time with on multiple other occasions, and all i could think about is how beautiful she was to me in so many ways, and how lucky i was to be sitting with her. it hit me that night – how amazing it is to finally see something after so many years. as i went home, i cried tears of joy and surprise at what God was doing in my life.
i didn't make a conscious decision to change my orientation. all i did was sit in the moment, and that was all it took for me to finally see another part of who i am. since that night i've experienced a whirlwind of emotions. i don't know if my feelings will be returned, but what i do know is that i have supportive and loving friends. no matter what happens – even if she is the only one who makes me feel this way – i am so thankful that i am at a place where i know God loves me and has made me in God's image. i do not feel alone, and that is because of the movement of the holy spirit.
i don't know if i will ever be able to share this publicly in another way, but i want all of you to know that your work and witness matters.